Warning some of these photos of me are horrible but because this is my journal i decided to put them up anyways!

I have been having "issues" lately and can not fall asleep so i just sit here and think and tonight i was thinking about twins! Probably because i have twins of my own and because Shannon just had her twins and it just made me re-live the first little while of the girls lives! I think that once you have twins, you all the sudden belong to a little club with all the other moms that have survived twins! I know that when ever i see a mom with twins i always go up and talk to her and when moms see me with my girls they talk to me! I love to know that i can call, text, or message Morgan and she will always have a answer for something that i am going through, (Thanks Morgan!)! Having twins is such a cool experience, but so hard some days!!

No one really ever seen just how HUGE i was, but this picture was the last one of i got of the belly! My pregnancy was really a good one, ok a better word would be healthy! I was miserable and hurt everywhere but my girls lived in there till 35 weeks so i think that makes it a good pregnancy! We did have a little scare at 33 weeks but that was just cause they were both fighting to be the first born!

My labor was easy, but i had to have a c-section that was not planned, but i got over it!
Addy was in the NICU for the first hours of her life and i was so drugged that it took along time for me to get down there to see her, it was so hard for me cause i hadnt even got to see her. But she luckily was only in there for a little while and then we got to all go home together after only 3 day in the hospital! The only real problem my girls had was they were real jaundice, and thats so good for being early and twins, we were lucky!

The first 2 weeks, i didnt sleep! Someone was always awake, Grace during the day, the babies at night, someone always needed mom! Then after having a really hard time nursing i started pumping and my life got easier! Slowly we are starting to get into a routine, some days are better than others but we are doing it!
Alot of the twin moms that i talked to said "you just got to get passed month 3", and they were right, it got alot easier about that time!

Someday i still feel like all i do is kids but its ok cause someday they are going to grow up and not need me as much so im ok with doing just kids for now!















Now they are almost 4 months old, i cant believe it! I have alot of fun with all 3 of my girls and i wouldnt trade them in!!

Even though this is what i look like everyday and you can usually find me walking the girls like this..



or feeding the girls on the couch in my sweat pants with my hair on top of my head!



Maybe someday i will start to wear clothes without spit up everywhere but for now i will just stick to the PJs and being kinda frumpy looking!!

Shannon i'm thinking of you and Morgan thanks for all the advise that you have given me!