Cancer sucks.... balls!

I go in for surgery on tomorrow, I get my hard expanders out and soft implants in.
It is bringing up all kinds of emotions, I am really nervous and scare, but excited too!
I think it will be alot like getting a regular boob job, but they will be scrapping all of my scar tissue and I have heard that is not pleasant, at all.
I have a hard time comparing it to a boob job, because well... getting a voluntary boob job done is not like what I have had to do.

The girls are freaking out over me going in, I have tried to make it happy good thing, but that still doesn't stop the questions and the tears.
The plan changed a little on how to get them to Grandmas house and there was major meltdowns this morning. (I have ruined them cause none of us deal with plans changing well.)
Grace was sad because she wouldn't be able to see me before she left,
Alaynna said she was going to miss me and cried hysterically, 
and Addison was fine, cause shes the peace keeper at this house! 
I really hope this cancer thing hasn't ruined my children.

It's been awhile since I wrote anything down, chemo brain makes it really hard to write and make any sense. I cant make my mouth say the word I am trying to, that is if I can think of the word I am trying to say. I have always sucked at spelling, but I honestly cant spell anything anymore, Google is my best friend!
I occasionally have no tact, but when I am tired, well I have none, steer clear!!

I have always been pretty anti social, but lately it has gotten even worst.
I don't leave my house unless Kyle makes me, and when I have to, I get a horrible scared feeling inside.
When I do venture out,
I think everyone is looking at me,
wondering why I look so old now,
why my hair is short,
if I am going to die,
did they get it all.
I know that in reality no one even notices me, and when they do they wish me well.
But I have some issues,
cancer issues.
I have really been asked (multiple times) why I cut my hair short? and Did they get it all?
Both questions are my least favorite, ever, and I imagine high five-ing you in the face.

Most days, (when I don't leave my house), I am good, but then the littlest things set me off into a tail spin,
(don't watch Chasing Life my fellow cancer people.)
of depression and panic attacks.
I feel like no one understands me, I have hair now so I am all good.
I don't know if emotionally I have ever been this crazy.

I'm pretty sure I am still in denial about even having cancer.
I wonder who came up with the term 'battling cancer'. I feel like this last year I just sat in my chair, falling asleep, waiting for the next doctor appointment. I don't think I 'battled' anything.
I don't know what to say to people about this 'cancer experience'.
Do I even mention that I have had cancer, and how do I say it?
I have not battled cancer, I sat in my chair binge watching netflix, hoping to feel better the next day.

But, with all things considered, life here at the Leavitt home is good.
We are counting down till the fair, the twins birthday, 2 new nieces, and summer! 
If this last year of sitting in my chair has taught me anything it would be how much I love my little family. 
I cant wait to get the girls back on Sunday and yell at them for being messy and loud and crazy! 

Tough enough to wear pink

Last Saturday was Tough Enough To Wear Pink. I woke up Saturday nervous, I knew people would be looking at me, and that made me nervous, ha!

But as soon as we got there I seen familiar faces, and Ashley who hugged me and made me feel so much better!
We got some of Rik's BBQ and then went and watched all the lady's ride. The girls had so much fun running around with friends and it was so nice to see people who love me there.
It was a hot day so Kyle came and got us our shade and some ice. It made the rest of the day much more comfortable!
Next year we will just bring it with us from the beginning! 

When Ashley asked me months ago if they could do this for me, I was hesitant, but then I thought "yes people do stuff like this cause they want to."

I think the picture of me "ugly" crying shows my emotions better than I could put into words.
I have never felt love and support like that from strangers and new and old friends. It was a very humbling experience for us.
Even as I sit here and look at the pictures and write this,  I am crying. It was something I will never be able to put into words.

Next year I cant wait to help out, I am going to make it my mission to get some people in the stands to  watch the wonderful ladies ride!

I am SO glad Amanda stuck around all day, I made her take pictures for me, shes the best!! 

Birthday post

I turned 28 last Friday!

I usually hate my birthday, I hide out and don't want anyone to recognize the day, but this year I didn't mind it at all. I have been repeating to myself, "old age is a privileged denied to many". I am ok with getting older, cause that means I get longer to watch my monsters grow up and more dates with Kyle!  

This year Kyle got me tickets to wicked, I love Broadway and have wanted to see wicked for, forever. 

It did not disappoint and when elphaba sang Defying Gravity, a tear came to my eye!! (all my children know the song. I thought everyone did)

I got lots of phone calls, texts, a few visits from friends, lunch with friends, and Kyle took me out for sushi and bunny busting, it was a very good day!

I thought I would write 28 things about me.

(28 seems like alot, I hope I can think that many!!) 

1. My favorite thing to eat is sushi, surprising.....
2. If I had to much money, I would give to the arts. I cant wait for my girls to get old enough to go with me to Broadway musicals and the ballet. 
3. I think if I would have had an art teacher growing up, I probably would have turned out 'more' like my Aunt Toni, and spent my days painting beautiful things, molding cows and giving them away for $12!!! 
4. I try and call my grandparents once a week, I like to see what the old people are up to and make sure they are taking care of themselves.
5. I don't like complaining, and I try not to do it. I always feel like there are so many people who are going through more than I am, why should I complain. Except on my blog, cause that is where I vent and I figure if you don't want to read it, don't click on it.
6. I love vegetables, I think the only one I don't love is pumpkin.
7. In fact, I hate pumpkin anything! Pumpkins should only be carved or used as decoration!
8. I feel like if people would do what I said, when I said it, the world would be a better place. Some would call that controlling, others would just say that I was smart!
9. I am always cold, unless I am having a hot flash, but I am never just right.
10. I just agree with people to shut them up. I only argue about something when I know I will win the argument, know I can change your mind, or am so passionate about the subject that I can't not try and convince you of my the right way!  
11. My biggest fear is something happening to my kids, something happening to Kyle, or having my cancer come back. 
12.  I could live off good bread, cheese and coffee.
13. I love to knit!
14. I cant wait to buy a forever home. I cant wait to decorate and paint, and call a place ours again! 
15. I love living here in this valley. After a long time of wanted to move I finally feel like this is home. 
16. I am more liberal than you would ever know.
17. I try and live my life with the mentality "live and let live". I let you pretend the way you live your life is the "right" way, let me pretend to. 
18.  I love to take pictures, I think pictures are like memories. You look back and you can feel the feelings you were having and remember little details that you wouldn't have without the pictures. Thats one reason I love my blog, I have wrote things down that I probably would have forgotten! 
19. I love to listening to my music to loud, Kyle hates it when I turn it up.
20. I love to cook, I just dont like to decided what to cook.
21. I love my chickens, I love to watch them peck the ground, it is very relaxing! 
22. If I was braver and not scared of needles, I would probably be tattooed neck down. I'd have huge angel wings, a rosary around my ankle, an arrow, all my kids names, and for sure a sleeve done up! Maybe someday! 
23. I don't really get "inspired" by people. Like motivation boards and such, they just don't do it for me. I feel like people who try to be inspiring, aren't. You don't wake up in the morning and think "what can I do to inspire someone today?"  You should just wake up and think "what good can I do today?" 
24. I love a man with a beard, that's why Kyle looks like a grizzly man!
25. After 28 years, I am A-OK with my extra squish that I have. I will never be a skinny mini, and I am fine with that. I hope it doesnt take my girls 28 years to be ok with how they look.
26. I love Iggy Azalea, I cant listen to her with the girls around cause she swears like a sailor, but hey so do I!
27. I love to watch people trip, I know it is horrible but it is so funny!! 
28. I think the answer to being mad at someone is egging their house, someday I might just actually do it!! So if one day you wake up to my organic eggs all over your house, know you've pissed me off!!!

500 posts! and my Big deer!

I had 2 deer tags this year, one Utah muzzle loader that I was not looking forward to, and my Nevada rifle tag that I was a little more excited about.
But hunting with young girls is hard and I really don't like to leave them for more than a night, it is usually harder than it has to be.
Even after alot of complaining from me, and me being sick, we decided that we would leave the girls with Nancy and then go up to Alamo for the first night.

We left Wednesday after Kyle got home, I pulled the trailer and Kyle followed me in the 4-runner! We found a little camping spot and then went to bed knowing that morning comes early when you are hunting! 

We really didn't expect to see anything there in Alamo, but we still went for a ride. After awhile of only seeing cows, a big deer ran up a mountain and caught up with his friend. So after talking about it, we decided to chase him.
We for real hiked up a mountain about a mile, and couldn't see any sign of deer. So then we hiked down and decided we would go up to a different spot where we knew we could at least could see a few deer! 

We got there about noon so we had lunch and set up the trailer. Then it was hot and we were bored so we decided to go to our spot to see if we could see anything in the spotting scope.
So at 3:18PM we got into the 4-runner, I was defiantly not  expecting to see any deer out. We got about a mile down the road, turned a corner and a buck and a few does were standing in the middle of the road.

Kyle yelled to me to get out, get the gun, get the shooting sticks, and I just don't work fast, So Kyle grabbed everything and told me to sit down and shoot!
So I did!! 

He didn't run to far and he was right off the side of the road!
To say I was happy is an understatement! It was a super fast, really easy, short hunt, but really it went so much better than I thought it would! And even though I am so happy and proud, I am pretty sure Kyle is more happy and more proud!

I also have now shot a bigger deer than all of Kyles brothers and my dad, Kyle has me beat but only by a few inches!  

Its my party and ill cry if I want to...........

Let me start by saying I DISLIKE my birthday, like alot!
I dont like attention on me, I dont like people trying to be nice cause they have to be, I especially dont like getting old!!!
But for some reason people dont forget that I was born no matter how hard i try and hide the day!

This year my mom and Steve were here and they were nice and drug me to Vegas! My mom got me a physic reading, it was really cool! She knew how many kids I had, that I have anxiety, and even what I had anxiety about. It was a fun experience and Id probably do it again just to see if they said the same thing!
After talking with the physic we went to Maggiano's and stuffed our self's! (If you like stuffed mushrooms, go for just them!)
Kyle was sweet and made me a cake in a mug and had the house cleaned up when I got back.

My mom kept the kids the day after my birthday and so Kyle and I went and ate sushi, (if I could, I would eat sushi at least once a day), went down on the strip, and then finished the night at Cheesecake factory for some dessert, it was a really fun night!!
I got lots of phone calls, texts and facebook messages to make me feel loved! Also some really pretty flowers,makeup, a new curling iron, a backpack, mono-pod, kettle bell, jewelry amore, and some nice cards! Although I hate my birthday, it is so nice that people think about me! 

I turned 27 so I thought I would share 27 things/thoughts about myself!

• I have been thinking about going back to school, but I have no idea what I want to be when I "grow up". 
• I also dont know if I could ever pass a math class.
• I am really sensitive and get my feelings hurt very easy, but I dont cry.
• I use to be opened minded, but through the years, some of the rude comments I have had to hear I have closed my mind. I hope someday to grow a thicker skin so maybe my mind can open again. 
• My favorite band is fun! I can sing all of their songs and I really hope to see them one day! 
• My dream for the girls is to be happy in whatever life they choose. 
• Kyle is my best friend, even though he drives me crazy sometimes! 
• 27 was really hard for me, 30 might kill me! 
• I have hobby ADD, I need to pick one or two and forget the rest! 
• I dont like to buy gifts just to buy them. If I see something I know you need or will enjoy then I love to buy gifts. So Christmas is VERY stressful and not my favorite! 
• If you want to make my day, bring me scoop for lunch! Tuesday is broccoli cheddar soup day, it is probably the best soup ever and I may eat pints at a time!
• I along with many of my family members suffer from misophonia disorder. So when I say I am going to kill you if you chomp, smack, slurp, breath loudly, I for real mean it!
• I love to find funny things on pinterest, sometimes when I am having a bad day I look at THIS board and laugh!
• My greatest fear is something happening to my children. 
• I carry pepper spray with me everywhere, it is probably not a good idea to scare me. 
• Kyle thinks I am a hippie, I really do walk a fine like to being one of "those crazy ladies"!
• I hate going to the doctor and I hate taking prescription pills! I only take them for my very worst migraines.
• I am a crazy oil lady and I think I can fix almost everything with my oils! 
• I dont fry anything, or use butter or oil when I cook. It makes me sick to eat fried food.
• Facebook makes me feel like I am sociable, but I am actually a hermit. And I like it that way! 
• Friends is my most favorite show, I can watch it over and over! Kyle and I cant more anything without yelling PIVOT!!!!
• I love reading sci-fi, I get lost in good books and it is probably the most relaxing thing I can do for myself! 
• I love to get in the bath, when we build our house that's one of the major requirements, a wonderfully huge bath tub, (and a lock on the bathroom door)!
• I dont think you can ever have to many pairs of shoes or to many jackets! 
• This last year or so has been a really hard one, I feel like I finally am getting back to the old happy Jessica, and I couldnt be happier about that! 
• I love our family's, I feel lucky that I am so close with my sisters. They are really the only ones that I can complain to and they understand! I also feel lucky I am so close with my mom, dad, and all my grandparent (that I try and talk to once a week). I am also so happy that I am close with all of Kyles family! 
• A clean house makes me happy and calmer! 

With that said I better shower and clean so that I can feel like I have done something today!
I dislike getting old, but I guess that is just life!

Mothers Day

This is going to be the last year that we have a missionary calling, I have to say i am so happy. Having family gone is just no fun and Lukes 2 years have felt like forever. Yea for November 13th!!!!!

Kyle woke up with the girls and they started on my favorite breakfast, french toast! The twins thought that they were making me toast toast, (thats what I eat pretty much every morning)! Kyle let them think that cause they were to busy to "help" him.
He got the bread and the fry pan out and then yells into me, "hey, how do you make french toast, I have the eggs and bread!"
So after i told him how to make it, he whipped up some yummy breakfast while Grace set the table.

After we cleaned up and got ready for the day we went down to talk to Luke. Penn and Kyle made us some yummy dutch oven potatoes and BBQ chicken and pork. 

Grace was so excited to give me my mothers day gift, She had made it at school and asked if she could give it to me Friday night, Saturday morning, and then about 20 times more! It was this Poem with her hand print on it, When I read it i cried, then I thought about it and I cried. She is getting so big and well it is kinda sad.


Sticky fingers and big wet kisses
Dirty toes and stars with wishes
Splashing through puddles and hugs too tight
Afternoon naps and sleepless nights
I’m growing so fast, I’ll soon be grown
So I’ve made you this handprint for your very own
So tuck it away and keep it, please
So years from now I can see
How much I changed as time went by
And you can always remember my…
Sticky fingers and big wet kisses
Dirty toes and stars with wishes…

She also filled out this questionnaire...

My mom is... 25 years old
Favorite color? blue
Her favorite TV show is... cukeing (cooking)
Her favorite food is... tokose (tacos)
Her favorite movie is.. up (she had erased hunger games)
Her favorite animal is...  elufint (elephant)
Her favorite chore is... dishis (dishes)
Her favorite sport is sokr bol (soccer)
On vacation she likes to go to... movees (the movie)
When she has free time she... plays on the komputer
She loves me so much because... I help her
I love her so much because... she helps me
My favorite thing to so with my mom is.. I like to play with my mom

I told Kyle to not buy me a card, Id rather him just write something on a paper, so thats what he did.

He told me that he had thought of 3 things to get for me, so i could pick between; something off my amazon wish list, Tom wedges, or the Iphone!

Then after I read it he says, " but i was thinking, your phone sucks so we have to get you a new one soon and your buying the only thing you really want on your wish list so pick the toms and then you will have all 3!"
I just laughed at him, he is so wonderfully a man!

I had a great mothers day and I love to be a mom.
With the girls getting older I am baby hungry, bad, they are all just getting so big and needing me less and less, and soon they are all going to be in school and I will be left by myself all day and then they will be in high school and i will embarrass them, and then they are going to get married and have kids......Can you tell I am having a panic attack?!?
Why do kids have to get older and grow up and gets little minds of their own, why?

I am going to try really hard to enjoy this time in my life when these three girls of mine drive me bat shit crazy, and hold them as tight as i can for as long as they will let me.

stuff I've heard around this week...

Since i have been kinda out of commission this last week it has been like vacation for my children! When they start acting up I cant chase them down to put them in time out, I just yell from the couch!

Here are some of the things that have seen and heard around the house...

• After being in  sweat pants, the same pair all week, for no kidding all week, we are getting ready to go for a ride and Addison says, "but mom you are in your pj's!"

• While falling asleep while Grace was at school and the twins were watching TV, (we've been doing alot of that!) I heard the girls in my candy drawer. I woke up at yelled at them to get out cause i couldnt chase them down and take the mouth full of candy and the hand fulls from them. So they sat back down enjoying all the candy and i fell back asleep only to be woke up to them in the drawer again, this time I got up! After getting the candy to a new hiding place and laying back down Addison turns around and yells, "go back to sleep mama!"!

• Mamaaaaaa, I'mmmmm done pooooopin! said by Addison and then 5 minutes later Alaynna!

• Every morning when I get the girls out of bed Alaynna has said, "can i see your owies?" I show them to her and with a horrified look on her face she says " I do not want owies like that!"

• Grace just mostly asks what she can do for me and has really been a help but never wants to go to the doctor!

• Kyle has been great, but I was dying to get out of the house yesterday so when he got home i told him i was going to linns! I didnt write a list so when i thought i had everything I called Kyle to make sure I hadnt forgot anything. He answered by saying, "are you stuck?"!

catch up, again.

Kyle turned the big 28 this year, we had ribs and carrot cake and had Nancy come down! Kyle likes his birthdays pretty low key and he gives me a list to choose from for a present!
I really like to surprise him, it doesnt happen very often cause I have a way of ruining them! This year I bought his present so that it showed up at the house only a few days before his birthday so he couldnt find it and as soon as i got it i stuck it under my bed!
I didnt tell or show Grace anything. So the night before his birthday i was finishing his cake and we were talking and Grace asked what we got him. I didnt say anything, then she said, "i bet you put it under the bed!" I must of had a look on my face cause Kyle took of running and locked me out of the bedroom, found his present and opened it!
He is a pain in the butt!

For about the last year i have had more and more food bother my stomach, then about the last 3 or 4 months i have had a odd pain on my right side under my ribs that never goes away.
I had a suspicion that it was a ulcer, my gallbladder, or my kidneys. So after going to my favorite doctor, having a ultrasound, and a HIDA scan, we decided my gallbladder had a blockage and was diseased.
I had Dr. Winch, my favorite surgeon, take it out on Thursday. I thought that it was just a little laparoscopy surgery, but i have had a little bit of a hard time recovering. I look like i have been in a knife fight, i am pretty drugged up, i have to have help sitting up, and it hurts to sleep on right side! But everyday i feel a little bit better and now i just have to watch what i eat for next little while till my body can learn to deal without my gallbladder!
Kyle has been great at taking car of me, the girls, and the house! But I think that Kyle is ready for me to start feeling better and retake over dinner and cleaning the house!

Grace had spring break last week, we did a whole lot of nothing, it was fun! We played all morning and didnt comb our hair till noon, it was wonderful!

The other morning Alaynna found a doll binky! None of my girls did binkys when they were little, to get them to take it was more work than just rocking them or whatever else i did to calm them. But now my 3 year old has decided that this doll binky is her new friend! For real this child gives me a run for my money, she is nuts!

If i would let the twins, they would would wear tutus and dress up clothed everyday! when we just hang out at home i do let them, but that is just cause sometimes i just dont have the energy for the fight!

I started some Photography classes and this is one of the pictures for my first assignment! Grace isnt as in focus as id like, but really this was the best i could get and i think it turned out pretty good! 

whats up buttercup?!

So my blog has not been as "up to date" as it use to be. I think I needed a blog/face book break. The world has been driving me nutty and I have been afraid i might have a blog venting session and well that would not be a good idea, ha!
Also we just have been busy with everyday life and nothing to interesting has happened to blog about!
A few thing that have happened that haven't made the blog yet, haha, are...

We ripped out our corn to make room for our winter garden; peas, radish's, carrots, and some broccoli.
Kyle planted 6 plants of broccoli, made a nice shade for them and we were really hopping for some good broccoli this year. But one day after work, Kyle noticed that a few of our plant had all the leaves ate off, so he put up a fence around our fence to keep the bunnys and quail out. But then after planting more plants, more of the leaves were getting ate. So after putting his trail cam out and waking up early in the morning, he caught the rabbit sneaking in and fixed the problem! We havent had a problem with the rabbits again!

After the wonderful week of freezing fall we had, it turned back into summer!! Not the horrible cant go outside at all summer, the nice fall like summer we get here in the desert! It is still way to warm for it being the middle of October, but maybe fall will come in November!

It was my 25th, 23rd birthday this last Monday! When I was a teenager I loved that people thought I was older than I was, but now that I am older I would really like someone, anyone, to be like "oh wow, you look like you are 19", ok that is probably stretching it, i'd take "oh wow you look 23!!!!!"
I always thought I would age with grace, but I am not! I dislike my birthday I want to be 25 23 forever, 30 may kill me!!!!

For some reason people think I am hard to buy for, I am not. A nice trash can, anything for my kitchen, sleeping in, or a simple house cleaning is on my wish list. Kyle did good this year though! Since he has Fridays off now we decided to go out to dinner. I told him id like something different than los lupes and a grocery shopping trip. He didnt seem to listen, but little did I know he had a night all planned out!
He took me into Vegas to this cool little Italian restaurant called Capo's. It was mafia themed and I even had a guy sing me unforgettable. After dinner we went to Fremont Street, neither of us were to impressed so we decided we would go find a Starbucks then come home! We had so much fun and I even got some real tiramsu and ate it on the way home and got sick!!!

This camouflage outfit is my present from Kyle, I think I look pretty good in it, it hide all the extra plump i have! I drew two tags this year and I only had 1 shirt that was camouflage so Kyle decided that i needed 2 pair of pants, a jacket, and a coat! He said it was hard to buy for me cause women sizes arent normal, haha!!! 

My mom was nice and watch the girls for us while we went out on friday and took them to her house for the night. When they came back the next day they brought me a cake!
I guess for turning another year older i had a pretty good birthday, alot of people thought of me and it made my week really nice.

I think my most favorite present came from Jakell. When she told me she was getting started on my birthday I was so happy!
After what seemed like forever, Taygan Riley Staley was born at 4:56pm she was 7lbs 4oz and 20in long! I really can not wait to get my hands on this little girl. I have really thought about driving up there but cant bring myself to go on a 8 hour ride in the middle of no where with my 3 children. So i will just have to wait for a few more weeks!

This week we also took Grace to the dentist for the first time!
It wasnt alot of fun!
The night before I was up with Addison who got the 2nd round of the stomach flu here at this house, so i was tired!
Grace did not like getting the xrays done and cried her eyes out. But after that she did pretty good and now brushes and flosses 3 to 15 times a day!
She didnt have any cavity's but she does have a cross bite and will have to have an expander put in, but not for a few more years!

I'm leaving on a jet plane.......

When Jerrica said she was going to have a reception in Pittsburgh I knew I had to go, and I knew I would have to take a plane to get there, and that terrified me. So.....

After being in Marysvale for 2 weeks, then catching up with laundry and other house stuff, then packing, My mom and I were off on a red eye, my first plane ride since 7th grade.

I did have a few major panic attacks, the first one while driving in, threw the tunnel to the air port, (i dont like tunnels)  I think my mom also had one cause she thought we were going to crash! We got there plenty early, checked our bags, and then went to our gate to wait. I was to nervous to read or eat, or do anything but look for suspicious bags left alone, suspicious looking people, and thinking of a game plane IF something were to happen on the plane. I really wanted to bring my tripod as a carry on just in case we got hijacked we could hit the person over the head with it and then re take over the plane,  (do you think I have some problems??) But everyone I told said I was crazy and to just take a Valium!

So after getting on the plane, locating the closest exit, going over all safety precautions, and having another panic attack, we started to take off, and oh my holy shit good golly I cried and thought i was going to die cause I couldnt breath, but you can only have a panic attack for so long before you just have to realize your very high in the sky and if somethings going to happen, it is kinda out of your hands.

Sleeping on a plane is pretty much impossible, so i took this time have a nice long chat with God and look at the clouds below and the lights so very far away. We got to Detroit and had a short layover then back on to a plane, the 2nd ride was not to bad and it was only about 45 minutes! Then we were there, on the other side of the country! My dad was not to far behind us so Joey and Jerrica picked us all up and off to Joeys moms home we went!!!

After meeting Tonia (Joeys Mom), Rikki Jo, Meagan (sisters), and Luke (Brother) and my mom taking a nap, We were off to decorate. I was pretty worthless cause I was SO tired after our red eye so I just watched! People were decorating, Joey was being groomzilla, there were people making food in the kitchen, everyone was just busy busy, except me, my mom, and dad!

They shipped Jerricas dress, the cake, and a few other things that needed to get there friday afternoon and luckily they did just in time! Joey was there to get the box that had fragile and this side up, stamped on it, but it was the wrong side down and the cake had a few minor breaks, but nothing that was unfixable! 

After lots of decorating, laughing, talking and getting to know Jerricas new family, My dad and I were off to our hotel  motel room! I should have taken  picture, we shared a double bed, but really once we hit the bed neither of us moved! After 12 full hours of sleep, we woke up and went for a little walk to see the sights around! Mostly there was trees, lots and  lots of green trees!!!

We got back to the place and finished up a few things before we went to get ready!

Since the only one of us that can curl hair is Jerrica, the bride, we made an assembly line. I did help a little bit, but burned my fingers so bad that my hand was kinda useless. After a few hours and 4 womens hair and makeup and 2 little girls hair, we were all off to get our dresses on and pictures taken!

The photographer got some really cute pictures of Jerrica while getting her dress on, she looked just as pretty as the weekend before, I guess it helps that she is just a really pretty girl!

The dads were late to get dressed and late to get pictures done, so we were all melting in the humidity, but we got it done and got a few good pictures too. Since Jakell couldnt make it back, next time Jerrica comes to my house we are going to do some Photoshopping and make Jakell "be there" with us!

When everyone started to show up for dinner, I of course didnt know anyone, but everyone back there made me, my mom, and my dad all feel really welcomed, I really was so impressed at how nice everyone was. I even got told I looked 17, and well thats about the best compliment I have gotten in years!!!

This is my absolutely most favorite picture of the whole two weddings, I think there faces are priceless, I for real might print this off and put it on my wall!!!!

I had so much fun getting to know Jerricas new family, watching everyone dance, (even the grandmas (till she fell)), eating the best stuffed peppers and baked beans I have ever tasted and getting to spend some time with Khole!

My dad and I had a fight out at 4 in the morning so we decided that we better get back to the house and try and sleep for a few hours. After a few mishaps, losing my phone charger, loud thunder, and just being worried about missing our flight, we were up and getting ready to go to the airport. We all decided the best thing to do would to have us take a car and leave it at the airport then no one would have to get up to take us. The only bad thing about that is that we had NO IDEA where to go. But have no fear, my phone has navigation. So after a few dirt roads, 1 one lane bridge, and 24 minutes of thinking we were lost and going to get ate up by some hillbilly's, we made it to the airport!!!!

We did get delayed about a half hour because of rain, but both my dad and I made our other flights. From Minneapolis to Vegas was bumpy and a full flight. I decided I get more car sick when I can see the ground. But going home I was to tired to have a full on panic attack and I just think I knew I was coming home and a plane was the only thing that was going to get me back!! The girls were so happy to see me and I was so happy I got a little break from them but I was even happier to see all there dirty little faces!!!!